GOD FIRST

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Image result for 2017I must admit that, this is so far one of my best years that I've ever lived in my over 20 or so years of experience. It had big transitions, I mean super big, most of which I never expected
It started off with my birthday and an almost career switch. Both of which almost happened at the same time. Starting with the former, the day was crowned with lots of friends sharing much laughter, joy and happiness around me. Of course with plenty of cake and gifts. (BTW this years gifts were diversely outstanding), I can't forget the birthday song which someone really insisted to sing to me even when their vocal capabilities were nowhere close to recognition. The later on the other hand, exposed me to something I'd probably never thought about for more than a second (Story for another day), but I felt loved, valued, respected and honored. The sense of belonging was so enormous, it felt good to work around people with beautiful and pure hearts. So I stayed, (reason for me saying almost in the beginning) the idea of a career shift was changed to something more fulfilling and with great awesomeness.
As the year continued to grow older so did I, I look back and am overwhelmed by the things that were so distinct yet memorable. I don't mean that this year didn't have it's challenges, all I mean is, it was worth it everyday.
Do you remember that every new year, we write down resolutions? At least I do, I always promised myself to be faithful to keep each of them to the latter. Am happy to admit that this 2017 in some I failed miserably and some I literally outdid myself.
Am not jotting this down to brag about my achievements nor get pity, but am doing this to better myself for the coming years. I don't want to rush into a new year with lofty ambitions and new years resolutions without properly evaluating, reflecting or learning from, the past years' experiences and miss opportunities to grow.
To do this I'll focus on a few questions, I'll start with what most people will let it be last after noting down all their accomplishments.

Image result for 1AM I CLOSER TO GOD NOW THAN I WAS AT THE BEGINNING OF THE YEAR?

Sincerely, I guess not, actually am not. Of course I believe I've grown and learnt a lot of things here and there, but still I could have done much better. I look at  the opportunities that I wasn't bold enough to stand up for God and I get perturbed. In short, I goofed, I wasn't Christ-like every-time. I 
made excuses for wrong behavior, I got caught up in the moment and forgot to pray and read the word as I  should. I was enticed by worldly materials that momentarily made me lose my focus on Christ. This reminds me of: Romans 3:23 For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God, and Donnie Mcclurkin's song I NEED YOU. Kindly allow me to share the lyrics
[Verse]
Where will I go without, Your hand holding me?
And how could I live without You I can't see?
Lord, what will I do with life, where will I go?
How would I handle things, all that I know?

[Chorus 1]
'Cause I fail, again
When I fall, I fall so short, so short
You know, You know my end Lord
From the start, You know my heart
I need You
I need You

I listen to this song and I feel it's a real reflection of my life, am so human and i fail, not once nor twice but in an immeasurable count. Am encouraged that everyday I need God, probably more today than yesterday. As every single day passes by, then I get to grow and know more about Him and what His expectations of me are, hence am confident that even in my weakness His grace is always sufficient. As I move to 2018 it's my desire to nurtured in his vineyard with humility. Because we sin, we also neglect the call of repentance. Like the vineyard that was so carefully tended, we are called each day to the Lord's healing presence.

I hope I'll be able to share the rest in my upcoming posts












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