The blue Matatu versus Me

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 They say "for every good thing that happens, please prepare for the bad thing that is on the way", I don't know who said these words but sometimes, there is some truth to it. Anyway, 2nd Jan  2020, was the day the Lord had made and I was 100% sure that it was going to be rejoice and be glad in it. I had earlier on, in December 2019 received my employment letter in one of the most reputable organizations in Kenya and was set to report for my first day at work on the said day. I woke up feeling like I just had won a lottery. It was exciting, you know growing up in my career journey, everyone who worked in my newly found employer could be for lack of a better word, considered a goddess. Everyone was always to trying to get in. So, you can imagine my excitement when I finally got my employment letter. 

I woke up, prepared and off I went. I reported at the Human Resource department and later I was directed to a big hall for orientation. After introductions we all gazed at each other, smiling and started a few chit chats on how lucky we were. After a couple of hours we were done with the initial introduction to the organization and released to go to our respective departments for a more in depth orientation. 

Lucky for me, my department had not resumed work yet from the Christmas Holidays, that gave me an  opportunity to just go home and chill for a couple of days and later resume back on the 6th of Jan. I called up my husband, shared the great new and Viola!!! he came to pick me up for a small celebration. 

We drove off and as we approached our destination, we suddenly felt a loud bang and our car was off the road. We thought that our brakes had failed but after confirming that we were both fine, we stepped out of the car, only to see a Nissan aka blue matatu a few inches behind us. The driver had run onto us.


We tried to have a discussion on the way forward with the Matatu driver but our efforts didn't yield any results. We finally called the cops and after they arrived we were directed to Kilimani Police Station. The cops were really supportive and commendable however, they advised that we could follow up with our insurance to sort out the damage since most matatu's insurance and owners never pay for the damage. A few forms were filled and we left to sort ourselves out. 

Am not sure what happened to the Blue Matatu after that incidence but a few days or weeks later I saw it back on the road. After the initial encounter, every time I was driving and would see a blue matatu, my heart would skip a bit. I would always try really hard to read the number plate and confirm if it the same on that we got into an accident with. Every time I saw it I wondered why they (Blue Matatu) didn't have to pay for all the damage. They walked scot free and my Husband and I were left to figure it out on our own. I had so much pain and resentment towards it. I felt like I was failed by the system and that I ought to do something about it. 

God reminded me of this incidence, and I can say for a fact that as much as two years have elapsed, I could move on past that. Unforgiveness hurts the victim more than the offender. When someone hurts you, you can hold on to anger, resentment and thoughts of revenge — or embrace forgiveness and move forward. Every day I was swallowed up by my own bitterness and sense of injustice. 

I remember praying and telling God to help me to let go of all the negative thoughts that clouded my mind. I decided that irrespective of whether they paid for the damages or not, it wasn't worth my peace and happiness. Not only for this Matatu scenario but any other hatred, anger and disappointment that I have harbored in my heart. 

How many times do we hold on to the situations that hurt us and we've became slaves to it. We fail to enjoy life because we are always looking to see if it's the Blue Matatu. In the middle of a good laugh and meaningful conversation all is lost with just the mention of one word that is related to the experience. I just wrote to tell you that it's time to move on. Gather the broken pieces off your heart and forgive. 

Remember our Lord's prayer ... 

How many of our prayers have been unanswered because of our inability to forgive. 

Matthew 18:35 My heavenly Father will also do the same to you, if each of you does not forgive his brother from your heart.”

Forgive so that you may live a happy and healthier life 

2 Corinthians 2:7 so that on the contrary you should rather forgive and comfort him, otherwise such a one might be overwhelmed by excessive sorrow.

Irrespective of what you are going through, allow God to work through your issues. It pains to see all the injustices but remember we serve a God of Vergence. 

Romans 12:19 Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.



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